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Hanging By a Moment

Reply to Mariem

Posted to the RoswellBSDM mailing list March 31, 2001

Title : Hanging by a moment
Pairing : Liz/Maria, Liz's POV
Rating : R
Disclaimer : I don't own anything. The song is by Life House, "Hanging by a moment" The lyrics really inspired me to do that, I suggest you listen to the song while reading the fic, though it's not necessary. Oh and I also suggest you read the lyrics, because, I mean, I dont always read the lyrics in the fics, but sometimes theyre important. In my fic, they are. So, um yeah, read on and well, id love feedback :)

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
I'm chasing after you
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

        Your beauty scares me. It makes me think and feel things I'm not supposed to. My life is already such a mess. I didn't need this. And suddenly, inside of me, is this desperate need, uncontrollable feeling, confusing me. And I don't know what to make of it, and I want to know the truth. I want to know if this is simply some weird reaction to everything that's going on, or if this is for real. If I'm falling in love with my bestfriend.

Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me

        I know you think I'm perfect. You think you could never be as good, as beautiful as intelligent as I am. You feel inadequate, useless, ugly and stupid. What you don't know is I admire you. I admire your strenght, Your swaying body makes me all tingly inside. Your giggles make me happy and your tears make my heart sore for you. Your wits impress me. The truth is, in my eyes, you're perfection. And I'm the one whose envious. Envious of you, my sweet delicate siren. The only one who can make my mind wander, who can make me forget who it is I'm in love with. Or, maybe, just maybe, I only "think" I'm in love with...

I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and I'm not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

        Every morning now, I run 10 miles. I want to keep in shape, for what's to come. The big war. And the only thing that's on my mind, is you. You fill my head, my heart, my soul. You always did. Now, it's stronger, intense somehow. Every morning, I end up in front of your door, and I look into your window, and there you are, on your bed, snoring softly, like music to my ears. your sweet full pouty lips parted in a sigh, your breasts heaving with your breathing, nipples peaking, calling my name, wanting to be touched, kneaded and reverently pulled into my mouth. Every morning, I force myself to leave, and continue to run, until I forget about you.

        Not this morning.

There's nothing else to lose
There's nothing else to find
There's nothing in the world
That could change my mind

        I knock on your window and your eyes flutter open in surprise. I don't blame you. Your hips sway slowly towards me, as if dancing to a music only they can hear. Have I ever told you how exotic you look? Even when you're not moving. Your deep emerald innocent eyes inquire me and you dare not speak. You dare not break the morning silence.

        I dare not break it either.

        So instead of explaining my presence with words. I simply close the gap between us, bringing our lips together. Have I ever told you I dream of this. Every night? It always begins like this. I'm waitressing in the Crashdown and Max comes in and we both stare at each other, incapable of moving. And then you come, behind me and pose a hand on my shoulder and I turn around. And your gaze lowers to my lips and a feeling so strong invades me, who would I be to deny it. Your eyes beg me, and I obey, in my dream, your lips are so soft, moving against my own. They feel like paradise. They feel nothing like Max's. And you know what? Reality is not much different. You gasp at first and your eyes snap open, the fatigue all gone, fear replacing it. But suddenly, the fear goes away, and lust takes it place. Lust, for me? My sweet sweet friend, have you been having the same dreams I did? Sometimes I wonder if you were dreamwalking me. And then I remember, not everything in my life is out of this world.

        Your kisses certainly are.

        Our lips part for a single moment, I get into your room and we stare at each other. I guess we're both unsure.

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move

        But you don't hesitate for too long. Your lips are once again on mine, and this time, you kiss me harder, you part my lips with your tongue and every thoughts disapear from my head. All thats left is you, the warmth of your body, the softness, the willingness.

        I remember when we were younger, we would tickle each other. And I always knew where to tickle you to make you laugh forever. I loved it when your eyes would twinkle with happiness. Maybe I always was attracted to you? But now, I don't tickle your waist, I caress it with my hands and you sigh and whimper, and whisper hoarsely.

        "Liz, Please..."

        Who am I to deny you what you want? Who am I to deny what I want, what I've been wanting for so long.

        : Sometimes, following your heart takes you into the unknown :

        When you arch your back Maria, when your eyes go out of focus for me, when your head hit the pillow, your body moving wildly, writhing under mine, when you moan my name needingly, when your hands pull my head closer, always closer, when your hips buck from want, you make me happier than I ever have been. You're my best friend, you always were.

        And now, maybe you're more. I don't know. Is it so important? Do we really have to talk about it? All I know is that..

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

The End.

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